Panic!

That is what I felt this morning. Less than 3 weeks away from IMAZ. I know I have done the training and my last long workouts went great! Here's the thing, I have done 12 of these things and too many Half-ironmans to count but I still panic. My biggest fear might be the swim, I am not a born swimmer, I am a self taught swimmer. Oh and I need to get in the pool! So now that that is off my chest, it is funny to me that I have done so many Ironman races and I keep coming back. I think every time I race it is with a new purpose. First it was something my husband did and I wanted to share in his hobbies, actually I was a runner and needed to cross train! Then it was to get back into shape after babies, and then to take time for my self without the babies. Now it is with the sole purpose of bettering my time(or beating my husband)! I feel I have more invested in this race. In years past I was on the minimalist training plan, lucky to get 8 hrs in a week. This year I have had numerous weeks over 16hrs, thanks Kathleen!! I want those extra hours to count, to truly improve my time. As the weeks go on my definition of success at this race will change. I have a time goal in mind, but I would also like to just stay out of the Medical tent. Something I have only done once.

All this being said, I am swearing off the candy until after the race. Halloween is sabotaging my race weight. I'm telling you those little candy bars just jump into my mouth as I walk by the candy bowl. But as of today, no more! It is only 20 days, anything is possible!! Cheers!